Wholeness of Selfhood

Nicola Mary Christensen-Johnson

Merciful Anger

An Online Workshop - The Mysticism of Inditing

Saturday 24 June 2023

Joy unspeakable is

wanting so badly

for my dreams to come true

that it hurts,

leaving a pain in the heart

that never goes away.

Joy unspeakable is

hanging on to the fragments of a vision

shattered by unresponsiveness,

nurturing them like shards from

the priceless mirror of the universe

defragmented into stupendous galaxies.

Joy unspeakable is

turning brokenness

into an art form

that tenderises

the pain in my heart.

 

June Intermezzo

The spring time odyssey invites us to slip into the cracks of our gender identity narratives. On the first half of the journey, we dive into womanhood and motherhood following various voices, named and unnamed, receiving tender words capturing the essence of our inner experience, listening to music with powerful lyrics as we fall upwards into Joy Unspeakable.

Joy Unspeakable is where the weary and self-emptied traveller lands when sorrow is handed over to a conversion of the heart. The transformation of sorrow into joy requires that we feel – truly feel – the losses, the sorrows, and all the unlivedness that dwell in us. What’s more, it beckons us to acknowledge the depth of the grief that inhabits us, individually and collectively. The love revolution sparked by Joy Unspeakable begins when we surrender to weeping and lamenting, even bemoaning and complaining, the mountains of sorrow that are chiselled in the human experience.

The June workshop invites us to the second half of the journey, this time exploring manhood and fatherhood, a journey guiding us towards Merciful Anger. Similar to grief, anger is also much suppressed and denied in our cultures and societies, yet anger is the deepest form of care and love.

How often have I bellowed, helplessly, “Where does my anger go when it cannot be conveyed and received in the fullness of its expression?”  So, yes, what happens when the ferocious lifeforces, we hastily name anger, are curtailed? They go underground bidding their eruption. So many – too many – voices strangled, words swallowed in makeshift attempts to conform to sanitised versions of anger and the premises of anger management approaches.

Nobody likes an angry woman; they are even feared, shunned and spurned as undesirable. Anger is a masculine energy, we are told, and in the name of this attribute of virility, anger is probably the only emotion that has been forcefully hammered into men so that they may claim their manhood and, like Prometheus, steal the power of fire from those who inhabit anger gracefully and unashamedly, as their birth right and rightful legacy.

Regardless of this cultural and societal context, whatever our gender or orientation, when we can allow ourselves to feel – truly feel – our bitter frustrations, our abrasive irritations, our rancorous disappointments, and the wealth of our sentiments of injustice, then we fall upwards into Merciful Anger and dwell there in compassionate equanimity.

Practical Information

The Online Workshop takes place on Saturday 24 June 2023 at

  • 8.00 – 10.00 Pacific
  • 11.00 – 13.00 Eastern
  • 16.00 – 18.00 UK & Ireland
  • 17.00 – 19.00 Central Europe

 

Cost: 500,00 kr.

67 € – £ 60 – 74 US$ – 98 CAD$

To sign up, go to the Webshop and select the date of 24 June 2023. You can sign up until 12.00 (CET) on the day of the workshop. After payment you will receive a confirmation email with the Zoom link to access the workshop.

My Heart Is Inditing

The purpose of the workshop is threefold:

  1. Uncovering the artform based on written language which enables us to bring the exquisite invisible into a precious and cherished visible form
  2. Developing our capacities for voicing the truths that dwell in our heart
  3. Initiating an experience of inhabiting and dwelling in the imaginal realm so as to unleash the powerful creativity populating our heart